Karen

Monday, April 25, 2005

The non-existent weekend

I don't know how I've managed to live past 15 years of exams. During the process of studying for them, I always feel like dying.

I thought the 3 weeks before the A-levels would be the worst I'd ever have to live through, especially since everyone was saying how wonderful and slack Uni-life would be. Well that was just a big fat lie, cos Uni sure isn't the bed of roses I imagined it to be. It used to take just the least, minimal bit of effort to do well in school, but now even when I put in 10times as much effort, I still get worried about those darn grades. That's not supposed to happen!!! What happened to the Karen who just left everything till the last 2 or 3 weeks and still managed to do fine? And now what's left of the old me (academics-wise) is the shell of what was before. Now I mug, but I still worry about what kind of grades those smart-beyond-smart lecturers would bestow upon me.

Damn NUS, I just can't wait to get out. Just 2 more sems of this and I'll be home-free. No honours for me man. That's just another 12 months wasted, another few $k on school fees down the drain, and the opportunity cost of about $25k in salary. However, I think I might work for 2 years then head over to gorgeous NYC or UK to further my education. Lit, or TS? =) That would probably be a lot more fun cos the important part in that decision would be that It Is My Decision. I don't regret what I decide. NUS was just a choiceless criteria to fulfill, to ensure my survival in Singapore. And also so that the disdainful stares of relatives would be warded off for at least another 3 years. I should have just gone overseas from the beginning.

But forget the above, I'd just like to fill all you voyeurs in on my pathetic weekend.

Yesterday - Was a mistake not dragging my ass to school, cos all I did was finish up my Representations readings and then I went for mass. After that... I spent the evening half-reading Donald Duk (it's just horrible). The only saving grace about yesterday was that I had a pretty good conversation (albeit MSN!) with a friend. I might say I hate technology and all that, but I guess it does come through for me sometimes. Sometimes. And funny thing was, I for once, wasn't the one that kept dc-ing throughout the conversation. Ahhh miracles! Few and far between.

Today - Headed down to YIH at 9am to study with Pau, Ben, Val, James, and my Angie-Eggtart. Productive enough, I guess, but leaving me feeling totally drained now. I wonder if it has anything to do with the fat-filled KFC that we consumed this afternoon. *cringes at the thought of the sinful lunch* But still, very thankful to Val for driving down to school today, which enabled us to be able to drive out for lunch instead of getting stuck at that horrendous Genki Sushi with its putrid sashimi and festering sushi. *retch*

Well I guess that's enough ranting for one post. The ululating logorrhea that I get here is amazing. It's funny that I can go on and on here, but takes me 10 whole minutes to come up with a proper essay outline during the exams.

More on that next time.

lying among the petals 12:06 PM